Oddly enough I’ve been a diabetic long enough that I don’t really think about it much in my day to day routine. That is unless something odd occurs. Well something odd occurred the other day.

As most know, I’m a type 1 insulin dependent diabetic. Without insulin I would have died at the age of 30 when I became sick, with what turned out to be the symptoms of extremely high blood sugars. Like 8 times normal high. Like in kill some people dead high. Me, I just ended up sick.

Anyhow. I spent years on daily injections, up to 9 a day on average and then I ended up getting an insulin pump. Wonder of wonders really. I may be a cyborg, part human, part machine, but my battery operated pancreas works pretty well. The girls helped me pick out a purple Minimed pump.  Here’s my type of pump but in the clear version.

This is normal life for me. I don’t really think about it much. However the other day one of my co-workers asked me what was on my hip. I explained it’s an insulin pump. The first words out of his mouth were “Damn, I didn’t know you were that bad off!” Didn’t know I was that bad off? WTF? I’ve been pumping for over 5 years now. Hell, I went through the aftermath of Katrina with this pump. It’s not like I’m some wilted Lily that’s about to fall the frack over.

I suppose that for someone who isn’t a diabetic it seems pretty bad. But hell, for me it’s nothing. I guess you could look at it like a death sentence, I don’t. I always told myself it could be a lot worse, I could have cancer. Which, karma being the bitch it is, Roberta now has. I won’t even go there, cause that is a death sentence and I’m ignoring it for now. Diabetes isn’t going to kill me. I will die with it, but not because of it.

It just really struck me as odd that someone would react that way to my pump. I eat, sleep, work, exercise, dive, and live life just about like everyone else. I don’t know why it bugged me so much. I guess it was just a sucker punch I wasn’t really expecting.

I guess once you get used to something it takes someone saying something stupid to make you step back and realize that maybe things aren’t as normal as they seem. It’s amazing what you can get used to I suppose.

  • Bud Light- 18 carbs or 3 units of insulin
  • clam chowder and garlic bread from Sea Harvest 84 Carbs or 12 units of insulin.
  • Burger king chicken meal. 77 carbs or 11 units.
  • Yard long Las Vegas Margarita – I don’t know because my pump couldn’t keep up. 🙂

You just get used to it. No shots, just dial a dose.

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