Well,

Amazingly enough I just made it to 40. Yep. I’m officially on top of the hill and lookin down. It’s hard to believe, but, here I am. Pretty wild. I figure I’ve had about an extra 10 years so far. That’s how long I’ve been a type 1 diabetic. Without insulin I would be in the ground about 10 years at this point. Luck has been with me, I’m still pissin in the wind, howlin at the moon, and drinkin myself stupid. Well, more stupid than normal. (-:

I know a lot of folk hit 40 and think, what have I done with my life? Oh my god! I have to get something done NOW before it’s too late. I guess I’m a little different in that. I look at my little ladies and stare in wonder. I think about my friends and think, damn I’m lucky. I remember John and think, god damn it! why aren’t you here to pick on me for hitting 40 before you. I’ve hit the 40 mark. It’s not an end or even a major change, it’s a step in the road of life. If I only have a few more steps, well, I still had a heck of a time. If I have a lot more steps to go, well, I hope they were as good as the first 40 I’ve walked.

If I had been born a hundred years ago I would have died at the age of 30 when I came down with Diabetes, or the wasting desease as it was called. So, what have I done in the last 10 years of life, the life I’ve been granted? Well..

I’ve watched Megan grow into a pain in the tail pre teen, and may she continue to be a pain! I’ve watched Molly and Nora grow into the wonderful little girls they are. I’ve had 10 years of friendship with John. In the last 10 years I’ve buried an Uncle, a Father in Law, a cousin, a friend, and a chosen brother. I’ve yelled at my children for no reason other than I was tired and frustrated. I’ve fought with my wife, and made up. I’ve held my girls when they were sick, I’ve kissed their injuries, and I’ve read them bed time stories before kissing them good night. I’ve done things I’m proud of and I’ve done things I’m not so proud of. It’s been a good 10 years.

I’ve also,

  • Learned to play the fiddle. Fairly well.
  • Learned to play the Mandolin. Not so well.
  • Saw Alaska and walked out in -50 degree temperature.
  • Stood in the Eye of Katrina, the greatest storm to hit the US.
  • Picked myself up after Katrina and helped my neighbors
  • kept my feet during the 7.9 earthquake in Alaska.
  • Cried during Taps being played for my friend.
  • Made my dead uncle proud by replacing the engine in my truck by myself!
  • Gotten up every morning and faced the day no matter how hard.
  • I’ve made new friends and kept old ones.

I’ve had a good 40 years.

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